“To everyone who’s lost someone they love long before it was their time, you feel like the days you had were not enough when you said goodbye… There is hope for the helpless and rest for the weary and love for the broken heart… There is mercy and healing. He will meet you wherever you are. Cry out to Jesus…”
My son, Jonathan Ray Thomas was born on March 21st 1990. My first child and my only son. He was taken from this world to be with his heavenly Father on March 23rd 2007, just 2 days after his 17th birthday.
He was driving to school where he studied engineering when he lost control of the vehicle and hit a tree. In just 30 seconds he was gone from my life and the lives of those who loved him. I wasn’t there to tell him goodbye or to hold his hand, but I know he knew it because I told him every day. He loved to go fishing in the stream behind our home and would make a campfire in our backyard to cook his catch. He loved hunting with his father. He never complained, was always so eager to please and would go out of his way to do anything for anyone, even complete strangers. He had simple wishes for his life. His teacher asked him and his other classmates what they wished for from life and his response was “to work with my dad, get married and have a child, and have a decent car, not a brand new one but just something to take me where I need to go…” I remember her telling me how much it meant to her because he didn’t wish for money or extravagant worldy possesions. I am extremely proud of who he was a person. He worked at a small restaurant in our hometown for 2 years and was loved by everyone who knew him. He loved to sing country songs and Jason Aldean was his favorite. Alot of people said that he resembled him, so I put a picture here of him with his cowboy hat =] It’s one of my favorites. He loved to play Call of Duty on XBOX live with his friends. The greatest gift he ever gave to me as his mother, was just the joy of his presence and seeing his smile every nite before he went to sleep and he said “hey mom. goodnite.” I miss him every day. He will forever be in my heart and the hearts of his 2 sisters and all of his family and friends who loved him.
A dogwood tree was planted in his memory at the vo-tech school he attended with a plaque there as a memorial. It was his favorite tree. We had one in our yard and he loved the smell of the blossoms. He used to pick them for me and put them in a jar on the window sill. The sun would shine on them in the window and the fragrance would fill the whole room.
Hijo mio, te amo mucho y te extrano…
I dedicate this poem to him.
I LOVE YOU JOHNNIE !
When tomorrow starts without me
And I’m not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
She said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I’d have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I’d always thought
I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday
Just even for awhile,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates
I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.
He said, “This is eternity
And all I’ve promised you;
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it all starts anew.”
“I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
And since each day’s the same day,
There’s no longing for the past.”
“But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true;
Though at times you did do things,
You knew you shouldn’t do.”
“But you have been forgiven
And now at last you’re free;
So won’t you take my hand
And share my life with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart
For every time you think of me,
I’m right here in your heart